about me…

July 26, 2016:  Over the last six years, I’ve been a nomad, wandering around the world, from Asia to Europe to the Middle East to Africa and back to Asia.  I taught English in Korea for one year.  I taught for nearly two years in the Sultanate of Oman, came home for a year, and then went to the south of China for another year.  I have been searching for something, but I’m not sure what. I know it’s a cliché to say I’ve been searching for myself, but I think that’s exactly what I’ve been doing.  I’ve been searching for love, for self-acceptance, for friendship, for adventure, for self-confidence, for independence, and for inner peace and happiness.   Sometimes I have found these things, and sometimes I haven’t.  I hope to continue this journey in America, with a newfound appreciation for a land I admittedly took for granted.  I hope to see the U.S. with fresh eyes.

me in Lalibela, Ethiopia in October 2012
me in Lalibela, Ethiopia in October 2012

I’ve been filled with wanderlust my whole life, and this journey was something I had to do.  Now I am ready to return home, a nomad, interrupted.  I don’t know how long this interruption will last before wanderlust whisks me away again, but for now, I feel like Dorothy on the Wizard of Oz, clicking my heels together, closing my eyes, and saying, “There’s no place like home.”

I returned home from China in July, 2015.  I was great to reconnect with my family and friends, and with my homeland.  Since I returned home, we had some major home renovations to complete, so I’ve been sitting at home more than I would like.  Now that it’s finished, there’s plenty to explore in my own backyard, in Washington, in northern Virgina, in Virginia, along the whole east coast, all through America.  We’re heading to Iceland in August.   So be on the lookout for me, a white-haired girl with an Olympus camera and a notebook in hand, walking through the land of the free.

me in Busan, South Korea, April 2010
me in Busan, South Korea, April 2010

Here’s something I wrote about my “self” in a Friday Meditation I wrote for my blog: a nomad in the land of nizwa ~ friday mediation: the elusive “self”.

What is the upshot?  About identity, I don’t know the answer.  I only believe that my self is in flux, constantly evolving, ever-changing.  Just as Buddhism teaches.  My self is a composite of all the books I have ever read, all the interactions I have ever had, all the people I have ever loved and hated, all the places I have ever been, all the hobbies I have ever pursued, all the aches and pains and heartbreak I have ever felt, all the happiness and sadness and anger…. as well as that blob of gray matter that is in my rather large head.  It is all my hopes and dreams and goals, which are always evolving. Plus.  Many more things known and unknown, things remembered and forgotten, things experienced and only dreamed about.

me in Busan, South Korea in April 2010
me in Busan, South Korea in April 2010

Who am I?  I don’t know.  But, whatever my identity, I cannot become attached to any erroneous or self-important idea about it.  It is always in flux and cannot be contained: it is a stream running down a stream bed, a snake slithering through grass, lava flowing from a volcano.  I can only catch glimpses of it as it passes by.  It’s not mine to keep, so I should simply let all notions of it go.

I love this poem, written by Charles O. Hartman, because it describes the thrill I always feel at the possibility of reinventing myself: Writer’s Almanac: Ticket by Charles O. Hartman

me in Oman during one day of rare wadi flooding
me in Oman during one day of rare wadi flooding

Some of my most well-loved quotes:
“The dangers of life are infinite, and among them is safety.” ~ Goethe 

“Don’t be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.” ~ Helen Keller

15 thoughts on “about me…

  1. Beautiful blog! I hope to be able to travel as much someday and go ahead and follow all my dreams. Also, sorry, but going through your blogs, your son, Alex is rather good looking how I wish you could be our match-maker. 😛 Kidding!

      1. Well this is where my job is at the moment, and I’ve been here for almost 9 years now. But soon my husband and I going to hit the road become a nomad like the current “trend”…. 🙂

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